My aunts went through the photo albums to reminiscence about the old times. I barely took a look at the album before i started tearing.. 2 people very dear to me are now alive only in the album, Grandpa and Great Grandma
I literally grew up with them, Grandpa would come back all sweaty and stinky with his yellow hardhat(he was in construction) and still bring me downstairs for snacks. While Great Grandma literally raised me up. She smoked, she drank but she loved me even though all she could speak was hakka and all i could ever do was smile and act blur.
Now all i have are memories and photos. I picked the happiest one i could find Grandpa's birthday
"You need to come back" "Ok, i'll book the next flight" 15 min later "Daddy, im coming back tomorrow at 3pm and..." Dad cuts me off "Grand dads gone.. he passed away"
Rage hit me... WHY! ... I AM JUST A DAY AWAY! Sorrow hit me... WHY! ... CANT I SEE HIM ONE LAST TIME! Guilt hit me... WHY! ... Didnt you spend more time with him .. the question hit me... Why? God... Why?
How can i praise you when u take grandpa away? How can i have faith in you when i just prayed for his recovery in faith? He .. was.. unsaved..
But still in this Lord, Teach me.. to praise you in the midst of this, Help me.. to share your love in this, Guide me .. always, Heal me.. so i can do unto others
"oh beautiful lord, wonderful savior,i know for sure ...."
Been reading this book lately, its call Chasing the Dragon by Jackie Pullinger and i must say that it has been really inspirational to read it. It is about this lady from Britain who was called to be a missionary and found herself at the shore of HongKong with a little more than a 100HK dollars in hand. The next 40 yrs of her life was dedicated to the poor, the forsaken, the rapist, the drug peddlers, the prostitures and the likes. Many have turned to Jesus and in such a wonderful way, albeit it was not an easy journey but I for one have learnt something very important after reading this wonderful book. Its called Praying in the Spirit.
I have always taken this gift i have for granted, only used it when i really needed it.. but as i continue to read the book, it tells of heroin addicts that come off heroin by just speaking in tongues! and i realised that in our lives, our bad habits although not as perverse or as hurtful as drugs can also be set free by the power of the Holy Spirit. All they had to do was Believe that Jesus is Lord and Saviour! time after time in the book it says that drug addicts do not feel the withdrawal symptoms of coming off heroin by just praying in the spirit. Gang leaders and whole triads turn to Jesus one by one having their lives changed because of someone who died for them 2000 yrs ago.
Amazing isnt it! if you have a problem today that u cannot handle with your own strength be it a bad habit that you want to kick but cannot, i strongly suggest trying Jesus. All we have to do is Believe and pray.
Tip: Set your volume to 75%-90%, close your eyes, raise your hands and worship
Prodigal Words and music by Michael Gungor and Michael Rossback
I’ve tasted Your glory and I left it there. Your poured out Your Spirit and I didn’t care. Still you loved me
I’ve lived for myself with nobody to blame. I took what You gave me and squandered Your grace. Still You loved me. Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me.
I could live for the broken and share in their pain. I could die like a martyr or live like a saint just to love You. I could sing like the angels and gather Your praise: Be blessed beyond measure and give it away just to love You. Still nothing compares to what You’ve done for me. Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me.
My heart has been broken; I’ve laid out my shame. Because of Your mercy, All I can say is I love You. So I’ll tell of Your story I’ll carry Your name I’ll live for Your glory Lord, I’ll share in Your pain just to love You. Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me. Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me. Nothing compares to what You’ve done for me.
Nothing can separate us Nothing can separate us Not death or life Or depth or height Or unseen power Now or ever!
