Yesterday i had 3 serious talks with 3 different people. All about different aspects of my life, what i have done, what im doing wrong in God's Eyes, how i am stumbling other people in their faith, about how weak i am spiritually. And come on, if that wasn't sign enough that God was telling me to get my life right with God... i dunno what is.
I pondered about these things yesterday and i was reminded by the rich young man in Matthew 19. He asked Jesus, i have kept your commandments, what more do i have to do to follow you. then Jesus replied "Sell all your possessions and give it to the poor and then follow me" but the young man couldnt do it. He treasured his wealth more and loss his chance to follow Jesus.
Then when i was on the bus today, i remembered Zacchaeus the wealthy tax collector that was ready to give up half his wealth for the poor and pay back 4 times anyone he has cheated.
And now i face a crossroad in my life, to be that rich young man that turned away at a chance, or to be like Zacchaeus and be obedient and strive for the prize that is in Christ Jesus. Not to take his mercies for granted but to act and make a decision.
And my answer can be found in my following prayer :
God your mercies overflow, your hands protect the weak yet are strong in justice. Lord lord i put my trust in you, let me not forget ure love for me, grant me peace in my heart. Whatever you say i obey, let me be sensitive to the holy spirit to help guide me along the way. I SURRENDER ALL. To you i will give up my lifestyle, my loved one and trust in you always for i know with man it is impossible but with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. praise your name Jesus, the name above every name. Amen
This will be my commitment from now on. Friends i give u all permission to intervene in my life if i seem to be straying away from what i said. I want to be transparent in my actions and to be accountable.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Buttprints
Butt Prints In The Sand
One night I had a wondrous dream,
One set of footprints there was seen,
The footprints of my precious Lord,
But mine were not along the shore.
But then some stranger prints appeared,
And I asked the Lord, "What have we here?"
Those prints are large and round and neat,
"But Lord they are too big for feet."
"My child," He said in somber tones,
"For miles I carried you alone.
I challenged you to walk in faith,
But you refused and made me wait."
"You disobeyed, you would not grow,
The walk of faith, you would not know.
So I got tired, I got fed up,
and there I dropped you on your butt."
"Because in life, there comes a time,
when one must fight, and one must climb.
When one must rise and take a stand,
or leave their butt prints in the sand."
author unknown
Haha...honestly how many ppl have their buttprints in the sand!! if we do ... lets really rise up from our butts and start walking together with God =)
One night I had a wondrous dream,
One set of footprints there was seen,
The footprints of my precious Lord,
But mine were not along the shore.
But then some stranger prints appeared,
And I asked the Lord, "What have we here?"
Those prints are large and round and neat,
"But Lord they are too big for feet."
"My child," He said in somber tones,
"For miles I carried you alone.
I challenged you to walk in faith,
But you refused and made me wait."
"You disobeyed, you would not grow,
The walk of faith, you would not know.
So I got tired, I got fed up,
and there I dropped you on your butt."
"Because in life, there comes a time,
when one must fight, and one must climb.
When one must rise and take a stand,
or leave their butt prints in the sand."
author unknown
Haha...honestly how many ppl have their buttprints in the sand!! if we do ... lets really rise up from our butts and start walking together with God =)
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Fly Away
Its hard to let go of people u treasure so much. But sometimes its really because you love them that u have to let go of them. Although it sucks to feel that way.. i guess we find comfort in knowing that by letting them 'fly away'... they will soar higher
This goes out to all the international students out there.. and also mummies and not forgetting daddies!~
p.s. Get your tissues handy =)
Corrinne May - Fly Away
"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
This goes out to all the international students out there.. and also mummies and not forgetting daddies!~
p.s. Get your tissues handy =)
Corrinne May - Fly Away
"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Emmanuel .. God with us
Have we ever loved someone... have we ever loved someone to the point you wanna just tell them but stopped short when suddenly logic overcomes us and we fear rejection or maybe something bad might happen?? say.. ure friendship with that person could be lost or the relation gets strained due to the new found knowledge??
Today while i was pondering about it... i realise something abit parallel to it. What if in the same quirky way.. God has the same problem as us .. with the difference being that he already declared his love for us. The problem being he declared his love for us but we not reciprocating it. Some embrace it, but the sad fact is alot more turn away from it.
It just hit me.. i mean like it must be very hurtful to want to love someone that probably doesnt love you back as much .... or at all for that reason. Being attached before gave me a good experience and insight of how wonderful it is to be a relationship but.. it was the breaking up that taught me the most.. about the absence of having someone there with you. Have we experienced that before?? i know mine was just utterly gut wrenching, i probably dehydrated myself crying and my mood was foul and mean to everyone that tried to comfort me.. then after which regret set in and just killed whatever purpose life meant to me.
I took me almost 2 whole yrs to get over the situation but i wanna encourage anyone reading this that there is one person to turn to in all circumstances, . And its none other than Jesus Christ
Matthew 28:20b says this very famous and powerful verse "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age"
no matter how trying it could be, no matter how tough any situation, no matter how happy you can be. Jesus is with us.. yesterday, today and forever...
But friends... the message that i would like to put across is this...
if it pains you to love someone that doesnt love you back. How much more when God loves us, but we not loving him back.
Thanks for reading =)
Today while i was pondering about it... i realise something abit parallel to it. What if in the same quirky way.. God has the same problem as us .. with the difference being that he already declared his love for us. The problem being he declared his love for us but we not reciprocating it. Some embrace it, but the sad fact is alot more turn away from it.
It just hit me.. i mean like it must be very hurtful to want to love someone that probably doesnt love you back as much .... or at all for that reason. Being attached before gave me a good experience and insight of how wonderful it is to be a relationship but.. it was the breaking up that taught me the most.. about the absence of having someone there with you. Have we experienced that before?? i know mine was just utterly gut wrenching, i probably dehydrated myself crying and my mood was foul and mean to everyone that tried to comfort me.. then after which regret set in and just killed whatever purpose life meant to me.
I took me almost 2 whole yrs to get over the situation but i wanna encourage anyone reading this that there is one person to turn to in all circumstances, . And its none other than Jesus Christ
Matthew 28:20b says this very famous and powerful verse "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age"
no matter how trying it could be, no matter how tough any situation, no matter how happy you can be. Jesus is with us.. yesterday, today and forever...
But friends... the message that i would like to put across is this...
if it pains you to love someone that doesnt love you back. How much more when God loves us, but we not loving him back.
Thanks for reading =)
Monday, May 5, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
More to life than it seems
My house.. is getting very cold.. not just literally
Today it seems, is duller (yes i made that word up) than most. I walk out of my bedroom looking at 2 doors, both my housemates, locked in their rooms. I havent talked to them in awhile, i knock on one door, pull the handle and push.. *locked* .. sigh another chance to talk to a housemate lost. I look at the other door, i wanted to knock, then i heard his girlfriend and him giggling among themselves, forget it i tell myself, dunt be a lightbulb. i walk back into my room, plop myself in front of the comp and start typing.
5 min pass, Sean's body doesnt seem to bode well with the loss of communication.. only one other person to turn to...
i pick up my guitar and start worshipping God, it always relaxes me... and i just kept on playing worship songs even though i knew i had to do work. i didnt wanna let go of my guitar, i didnt want to stop worshipping God ... i was lonely...
i prayed to God....
God.. why is this happening .. i expected my household to be more lively than this.. but now everyone is in their own room doing their own things. i dunno what to do, but just let me stay with u.. all i need is in u .. all i want is to be with u ..
all i need is u lord.. is u lord .. all i need is u i sang..
time went by.. and heard a knock on the door. oh dear have i been singing too loudly again??
i put toto back in her basinet, opened my door. Saw a smile on Ray's face.. "would you like a cake" he said .. apparently its his birthday
i accepted the offer and took the chance to just talk to him abit..
came back into my room, brought myself to bed..
i closed my eyes.. smiled.. and said a short prayer
"Thank u lord.. that was exactly what i needed"
Wasnt such a dull day after all....
Today it seems, is duller (yes i made that word up) than most. I walk out of my bedroom looking at 2 doors, both my housemates, locked in their rooms. I havent talked to them in awhile, i knock on one door, pull the handle and push.. *locked* .. sigh another chance to talk to a housemate lost. I look at the other door, i wanted to knock, then i heard his girlfriend and him giggling among themselves, forget it i tell myself, dunt be a lightbulb. i walk back into my room, plop myself in front of the comp and start typing.
5 min pass, Sean's body doesnt seem to bode well with the loss of communication.. only one other person to turn to...
i pick up my guitar and start worshipping God, it always relaxes me... and i just kept on playing worship songs even though i knew i had to do work. i didnt wanna let go of my guitar, i didnt want to stop worshipping God ... i was lonely...
i prayed to God....
God.. why is this happening .. i expected my household to be more lively than this.. but now everyone is in their own room doing their own things. i dunno what to do, but just let me stay with u.. all i need is in u .. all i want is to be with u ..
all i need is u lord.. is u lord .. all i need is u i sang..
time went by.. and heard a knock on the door. oh dear have i been singing too loudly again??
i put toto back in her basinet, opened my door. Saw a smile on Ray's face.. "would you like a cake" he said .. apparently its his birthday
i accepted the offer and took the chance to just talk to him abit..
came back into my room, brought myself to bed..
i closed my eyes.. smiled.. and said a short prayer
"Thank u lord.. that was exactly what i needed"
Wasnt such a dull day after all....
Thursday, April 24, 2008
A new love
Love love love... yes im in love~~ and the worst part is .. i cant seem to keep my hands of her!!
K i know ive been complaining about having no life and all.. and that i really dunt have time to do anything.. but i find her always by my side literally whenever i study or even blog...
Ok mum and friends... b4 u freak out and think i really do have a girlfriend and start probing me with questions.. the she im referring to is my guitar!~~~ (well honestly it aint exactly mine, im borrowing from a friend indefinitely.. Thx Miss Leo!!)
Maybe i'll just share a little history on how i got started with the Guitar.
It was a dark and rowdy nite in Canberra when it all started. I was brooding over the fact that flies were constantly in my face all the time and more so that my housemate Leumas Gnow a.k.a Samuel Wong was going back to Singapore for good and the thought suddenly hit me that we would only be left with ian and sam to play for lifegrp (considering mel was going to plant a church and joy doesnt come as often as we'd like her to). I figured that maybe i should go pick up the guitar too!! And Guess what .. God paved the way to making me a guitarist!! that night itself, Sam all of the sudden gave me a crash course on guitar chords, when i went back to brisbane, Samuel tot me more basics and chords, when i went back to singapore, i honestly wanted to buy a guitar but in the end i managed to borrow a guitar from a friend to practice and just when i wanted to give it back to her, she got herself a new guitar and told me i could use her guitar indefinitely. I was like... amazed at the turn of events and i really really thank God for his provision =)
Isnt she so kewl!!
Now...i cant seem to keep my hands off the guitar !! i play and play till my finger tips turn blue and are aching with pain.. but i just cant stop.. everytime i start playing praise and worship songs with the guitar ( i call her Toto by the way -_-).. i just cant stop singing my heart out in joy and loudness... yes.. loudness
People normally sing in the bathroom.. but when Sean's with his guitar.. Whole nother story...
There was this one time i tink i got a lil over board and sang till my room mate complained hahaha.. at first i was kinda sad about not being to really play the guitar and sing as loud as i wanted but i figured i would just close my doors and window and just play something soft and slow... little did i know i would go back to door banging decibel volumes again haha..
Also Amelia, Charmaine and me have formed a small band called... MINIBAND (can imagine jaws dropping) where we come together with Charm on the keyboard, Me on the guitar and Am with her *cough* air drums/vocals to just sing praise & worship songs and the occasional damien rice songs that Am forces me to learn -_- .. Cant wait for the day we can stand together in lifegrp or even better to play for Service!!!
But i really thank God for everything so far, indeed he continues to blow my mind everyday and i'd be a sucker not to live for him.
Thank u God!! and not forgetting all the peeps that have helped me in my walk with the guitar haha
K i know ive been complaining about having no life and all.. and that i really dunt have time to do anything.. but i find her always by my side literally whenever i study or even blog...
Ok mum and friends... b4 u freak out and think i really do have a girlfriend and start probing me with questions.. the she im referring to is my guitar!~~~ (well honestly it aint exactly mine, im borrowing from a friend indefinitely.. Thx Miss Leo!!)
Maybe i'll just share a little history on how i got started with the Guitar.
It was a dark and rowdy nite in Canberra when it all started. I was brooding over the fact that flies were constantly in my face all the time and more so that my housemate Leumas Gnow a.k.a Samuel Wong was going back to Singapore for good and the thought suddenly hit me that we would only be left with ian and sam to play for lifegrp (considering mel was going to plant a church and joy doesnt come as often as we'd like her to). I figured that maybe i should go pick up the guitar too!! And Guess what .. God paved the way to making me a guitarist!! that night itself, Sam all of the sudden gave me a crash course on guitar chords, when i went back to brisbane, Samuel tot me more basics and chords, when i went back to singapore, i honestly wanted to buy a guitar but in the end i managed to borrow a guitar from a friend to practice and just when i wanted to give it back to her, she got herself a new guitar and told me i could use her guitar indefinitely. I was like... amazed at the turn of events and i really really thank God for his provision =)
Isnt she so kewl!!
Now...i cant seem to keep my hands off the guitar !! i play and play till my finger tips turn blue and are aching with pain.. but i just cant stop.. everytime i start playing praise and worship songs with the guitar ( i call her Toto by the way -_-).. i just cant stop singing my heart out in joy and loudness... yes.. loudness
People normally sing in the bathroom.. but when Sean's with his guitar.. Whole nother story...
There was this one time i tink i got a lil over board and sang till my room mate complained hahaha.. at first i was kinda sad about not being to really play the guitar and sing as loud as i wanted but i figured i would just close my doors and window and just play something soft and slow... little did i know i would go back to door banging decibel volumes again haha..
Also Amelia, Charmaine and me have formed a small band called... MINIBAND (can imagine jaws dropping) where we come together with Charm on the keyboard, Me on the guitar and Am with her *cough* air drums/vocals to just sing praise & worship songs and the occasional damien rice songs that Am forces me to learn -_- .. Cant wait for the day we can stand together in lifegrp or even better to play for Service!!!
But i really thank God for everything so far, indeed he continues to blow my mind everyday and i'd be a sucker not to live for him.
Thank u God!! and not forgetting all the peeps that have helped me in my walk with the guitar haha
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Living the life of a no lifer
Yes!! its finally comes down to this... Sean is officially a no lifer!!
But u might be wondering .. what is the real definition of a no lifer?? so being curious i actually went to google up the "definition of no life" and here are some of the results
1. having no life would be staying alone at home watching tv all day...not much movement..not much activity..not experiencing things
2. having no life means you consider "the Mall" the preeminent destination for culture and socializing, you think "The Olive Garden" is good authentic Italian food, and you think that Titanic is the greatest film ever made.
3. You are a zombie
But i realise .. im none of these... so to add on to the list of definitions of a no lifer..
A NO LIFER is a person who does not have any time to socialise with his/her friends and immediately goes back home after school or function to study or prepare work.
Thats my definition of a no lifer as of now... it kinda sucks having no time for fun or leisure.. everyday u come home just to hit the books till 12 am then go to sleep.
Guys u gotta bring Sean out soon or else Fun fun Sean will fade away ahhhhhh!!
Prayer for the day - Lord free me from this bondage of unlife!~~~
But u might be wondering .. what is the real definition of a no lifer?? so being curious i actually went to google up the "definition of no life" and here are some of the results
1. having no life would be staying alone at home watching tv all day...not much movement..not much activity..not experiencing things
2. having no life means you consider "the Mall" the preeminent destination for culture and socializing, you think "The Olive Garden" is good authentic Italian food, and you think that Titanic is the greatest film ever made.
3. You are a zombie
But i realise .. im none of these... so to add on to the list of definitions of a no lifer..
A NO LIFER is a person who does not have any time to socialise with his/her friends and immediately goes back home after school or function to study or prepare work.
Thats my definition of a no lifer as of now... it kinda sucks having no time for fun or leisure.. everyday u come home just to hit the books till 12 am then go to sleep.
Guys u gotta bring Sean out soon or else Fun fun Sean will fade away ahhhhhh!!
Prayer for the day - Lord free me from this bondage of unlife!~~~
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Blog your blog =p
Hey peeps...
I tink it is high time i apologise for not writing my blog -_-
I knew this would have eventually happened... but i'd like to at least tell you guys (if anyone is reading) my reasons for not blogging anymore.
It just so happens that last year. i actually became addicted to reading blogs and blogging, it kinda took up alot of my time and i even remembered spending 3 hrs just to write my blog. so i decided to stop writing for awhile which in the end turned horribly bad and i stopped for almost close to 4 mths *ack*
What convicted me back into blogging was when i was talking to this friend thru msn. i actually told her that one of my goals in life is to actually hold on to every single friend i have, no matter how far apart we might be.. and that got me thinking.. and i realised.. while im trying to 'save' the friendship with this friend.. in retrospect.. i am actually in a way stopping my communication with the rest of my friends that read my blog by not blogging(sorry dudes =p), from now on i'll try to blog diligently!!
Summary of Sean for the past 4 mths
- Thesis is looming over his shoulder *eep*
- He is learning the acoustic guitar!! (cant play bar chords properly yet)
- Taking 5 subjects this semester *faints*
- Yes,he's still abit chubby but he's trying to slim down(he needs some encouragement)
- This is his last semester!! pray for supernatural wisdom for Sean!!
- Trying to be a dedicated Christian =)
i will update more as we go along, We just had Oceania Convention (A Convention of my church that lasted over 4 days) and i am poopified to say the least, till then =)
I tink it is high time i apologise for not writing my blog -_-
I knew this would have eventually happened... but i'd like to at least tell you guys (if anyone is reading) my reasons for not blogging anymore.
It just so happens that last year. i actually became addicted to reading blogs and blogging, it kinda took up alot of my time and i even remembered spending 3 hrs just to write my blog. so i decided to stop writing for awhile which in the end turned horribly bad and i stopped for almost close to 4 mths *ack*
What convicted me back into blogging was when i was talking to this friend thru msn. i actually told her that one of my goals in life is to actually hold on to every single friend i have, no matter how far apart we might be.. and that got me thinking.. and i realised.. while im trying to 'save' the friendship with this friend.. in retrospect.. i am actually in a way stopping my communication with the rest of my friends that read my blog by not blogging(sorry dudes =p), from now on i'll try to blog diligently!!
Summary of Sean for the past 4 mths
- Thesis is looming over his shoulder *eep*
- He is learning the acoustic guitar!! (cant play bar chords properly yet)
- Taking 5 subjects this semester *faints*
- Yes,he's still abit chubby but he's trying to slim down(he needs some encouragement)
- This is his last semester!! pray for supernatural wisdom for Sean!!
- Trying to be a dedicated Christian =)
i will update more as we go along, We just had Oceania Convention (A Convention of my church that lasted over 4 days) and i am poopified to say the least, till then =)
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